The truth

The truth: 209.o

That is the sad honest truth. I spent a lot of time today thinking about the reasons that I eat. I know that I am an emotional eater. I think that goes with out saying. I would like to blame all my eating issues on my mother passing away, but I think two years later I am not able to use that as an excuse anymore.

What I came up with is.... I love food and eating it makes me happy. I like the way it fills me up. I feel empty emotionally most of the time and eating makes it go away for a moment. My thoughts are always how can I make that emptiness never go away. Now how do I fix this?

I ate like a crazy woman today.... as my last day of free eating. Now for every bite I take I need a reason. Yeah right we will see how long that lasts, but it is my mission.

I have decided to set little goals for myself. I bought a pair of 14 ANA jeans form JC Penny. I love them, but even when I bought them they were snug... now they are just uncomfortable! My first goal is to wear these jeans comfortably.


Heres to another day.